Someone is dressing up for death today
September 11, 2012 § 9 Comments
Someone (by Dennis O’Driscoll)
someone is dressing up for death today, a change of skirt or tie
eating a final feast of buttered sliced pan, tea
scarcely having noticed the erection that was his last
shaving his face to marble for the icy laying out
spraying with deodorant her coarse armpit grass
someone today is leaving home on business
saluting, terminally, the neighbours who will join in the cortege
someone is paring his nails for the last time, a precious moment
someone’s waist will not be marked with elastic in the future
someone is putting out milkbottles for a day that will not come
someone’s fresh breath is about to be taken clean away
someone is writing a cheque that will be rejected as ‘drawer deceased’
someone is circling posthumous dates on a calendar
someone is listening to an irrelevant weather forecast
someone is making rash promises to friends
someone’s coffin is being sanded, laminated, shined
who feels this morning quite as well as ever
someone if asked would find nothing remarkable in today’s date
perfume and goodbyes her final will and testament
someone today is seeing the world for the last time
as innocently as he had seen it first
The truth of this poem haunts me. I am an anxious person (have I mentioned this before?) and see the brevity of life on every busy street and crust of bread inhaled too quickly.
I read O’ Driscoll’s poem many years ago in an anthology called The Spaces of Hope: Poetry for our Times and Places.
Our times and places.
The book was published in 1998 and it was the banality of death that struck me — putting on deodorant, writing a check… seemed the most likely way a person like me would spend their final moments. I was no soldier or mountain climber. An unspectacular death for most of us.
Then, an airplane flew into a skyscraper in New York city.
Somebody at a desk was perhaps writing a check, adjusting their tie, thinking about lunch. But, then, they casually glanced out their workplace window, and an airplane was flying towards them. Someone, that morning, packed their suitcase and drove to the airport and maybe didn’t tell their other someone that they loved them. Who knew their plane was not going home or on holiday? That it was going to fly into a skyscraper in New York City?
For all its ubiquitous inevitability, death is so often treated as surprising and unexpected. But some deaths are so unexpected, unpredictable and inconceivable, we can never make sense of them.
In 1998, “for our Times and Places”, didn’t mean what it means now.
The time: 8:46:30am. 9/11.
The place: NYC, the Twin Towers, someone’s workplace, someone’s ordinary.
And what of “The Spaces of Hope”? What does that mean now? In this time and place, after that time and place?
Questions, eleven years later.